- you. i'm sorry. that's all i can ever say for what i did to you. but i don't want you to think any of it was ever faked or forced. i loved you, i still love you. i'll probably never stop. i miss you a lot. i think about all of the fun times we had together, how we would race to the beach. i don't think i'll ever forget. but i guess this is kind of a final goodbye. i have to move on, because things will never, ever be the same. i'm sorry i messed everything up.
- i'm sorry, for ruining everything. i couldn't get over the past and so i tried to just fix things but in reality i didn't, i ruined everything. i love you and i still miss you. every single day i think about you. i wish i never would've done all of that stupid shit i did. i wish i would've been honest and upfront with you. i wish i would've just been truthful and maybe risked hurting you a little rather than lying and hurting us both. you're the only girl that i have ever felt anything for (besides my ex, but she's irrelevant) and i just can't believe that i let you go.
so i'm sorry. i hope that you don't hate me. because i know it's selfish, but the time that i haven't spent talking to you has been hell. i just want to be friends again or something. i can't deal with not having you in my life somehow.